So sorry for your loss, friend. Judging by your emotional words, I can guarantee she lived an incredible life with an awesome owner. It's so hard to say goodbye to a pet. They are family. Not just any family. They kind of family that doesn't judge, want or need anything from you. Just love. All the time. Never an argument or a bad mood. Just chillin' every night waiting for mom or dad to get home. I feel your pain. Even though it doesn't make it hurt any less, you are the only one who knew what was best for her.