Yes
Unrivaled
By a mile
COD even (Decade)
But you're pushing it already, with those pink shades
.500??
That manic side is no sign of sound mental health either, dude...
I fear these are still sypmptoms of your PTSD {Post-Trade-Sans-DMC}.
It will get better in time, my friend, don't worry about it too much,
but I wouldn't engage in ANY decision making for the time being,
if I were you. (And I AM, in a way - at least I'm in your shoes...)